Nov 22, 2009
My name is sharon slawson and i live in amarillo texas. i'm 53 years old and my tubes had been tied for 17 years when in 1996 god blessed me with a beautiful , happy, healthy bouncing baby boy!!! his dad doesnt have anything to do with us as he is as irresponsible as a 17 year old..I have physical custody of Carl and we get chuld support but only 231.00 a month. his dad has visitation but we hardley ever see him. when we do he's with a diffrent woman,(with children) and it just breaks my babys heart.he wants a dad so bad, i signed him up for big brother and it took almost a year to get him a brother, then when we did he was an older man,older than me, and every time he was with carl all he did was come to our house, sit in the frontroom and tease carl about not having a girlfriend!!! Carl is not ready for any of that, He's 13 but he still believes in santa, the easter bunny, the tooth fairy..etc.A nd i'm so very glad he does. He hides his face when people start kissing on tv. He's a very responsible boy he has been taking care of me for 5 years.I have emphyzema / copd and only 27% lung capicity. i am in the hospital at least twice a year for resperatory problems, I'm on oxygen 24/7. I can't even be off long enough to go to the bathroom.I get 649.00 a month disibility andi finally got us on housing and i pay 150.00 month rent,& all the utilities.I live in a trailer house and with this oxygen machine my electric bill is sky high. Only this past summer i was also diagnosed with severe anxiety attacks on top of everything else so my doctor put me on anxiety medication. i have to pay 106.00 a month to rent a washer and dryer because i don't have my own. i hate it but i'm not able to do his laundry as often as it needs to be done. when we first got disability i put carl in central babtist christian academy but then i took us out of skid row and put us in this trailer but here rent is higher and we now pay utilities (but it's a much better neighborhood) so I had to take carl out of that school and put him in piblic school. He still goes to church there.I just could'nt afford the265.00 a month tuition anymore. his grades have'nt slipped but i worry about him being exposed to things he would'nt be exposed to there. he's a smart, moral, god fearing boy and most of the time he makes the right decisions. His birthday is November the 1st and all our money went to pay rent bills and bank overdraft so i could'nt get him anything so i let him take the food stamp card and get anything he wanted, you know what he got, ME a chocolate rose!!!!!!! i am the luckiest mom in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just wan't to try to give my baby a special christmas this year and I don't think I can do it all on my own this year, I think next year will be better for us,, i'll know by then whats what with our money and maybe by then we won't be robbing from peter to pay paul. thank you so very very much for reading my story.***************sharon slawson
